It was a ruined life.
The only success in over forty years of life was when he passed the local medical school after a smash hit at the end of the shooter.
I didn't really think it was a big success.
But what are you doing?
Before that, I just kept failing.
Bullying in high school.
At the end of the shooter, if you pass the unchanged medical school, you can barely fail.
After graduating, I do not accept any majors, so I opted for surgery that is avoided by others.
However, after majoring in surgery, I did my best and worked hard.
Because I realized that ignorance and incompetence could kill a patient.
Is it because of his desperate effort to sleep so much and to think of the patient?
It was a chance to work in the best hospital in Korea.
'I really liked that time.'
But the bridle of failure did not let him go.
Regardless of his ability, he was pushed out of the hospital's competition, and the hospital with the debt was destroyed.
He was divorced by his married wife, and had to suffer from rough debts every day.
I wanted to do filial piety on my remaining old mother, but soon I was going to sit on the street.
Moreover… … .
"Sigh… … . ”
A few days ago I was sentenced to late stage cancer.
Damn it.
***
Jinhyeon sat without power and looked at an empty hospital.
Private hospitals, which had been pushed out of the competition in Daeil Hospital, had failed and turned into ghosts, and there were numerous foreclosure tickets everywhere.
Jinhyun's eyes came to the corner of the office and a broken wedding picture.
'Can you say cancer? Now it's three months long? '
"Shit."
Profanity came out.
"Shit!! Damn !!! ”
Will I die?
I just failed! I never lived the life I wanted! Mother Hyo did not even once!
But he did not have time to mourn. Men in black suits came to him.
“Mr. Jinhyun Kim? What are you going to do?
The service employee, the gangster. They told Jinhyeon in a threatening manner.
"What will you do with the money you owe?"
Jinhyun came out laughing. You're being urged by a yard of death.
“Please wait a moment. I'll solve it somehow. ”
But they did not snort.
"solution? It's funny! Do you think it's solved? He just bought a mouth. I get divorced by my wife. "
Jinhyeon clenched his fist.
My wife and divorced after the hospital. I wanted to scoop up the sore throat, but I was forced to bear it because I was in debt.
“Please cover your words. I'll do it anyway. ”
"huh! how? Are you dying soon? "
"...... !!"
Jinhyeon's eyes shook. They knew that he was sentenced to death.
“Would you like to die? Huh? I'll rob you of my debts. Oh, cool! But don't you know that? Your mother's guarantee is 200 million dollars in debt. ”
“That's… … ! ”
Jinhyeon's face became pale.
When I opened the hospital, I had a guarantee in my mother's name.
At that time, I did not think that I would not be able to pay back the money. Rather, he worked hard with the intention of succeeding based on the money.
But the results were terrible.
"Do you think we'll stay if you die like this?"
“Please don't touch my mother. Please. ”
Eventually, Jin Hyun hung.
His father died in high school and raised him alone.
You could be kicked out on the street, but you couldn't let an old mother sit on the street.
"There is only one way."
“What, what is it?”
One of them pointed to Jin Hyun's upper abdomen with his finger.
“You see, doctor? What's over there? ”
“Simple… … . ”
"Then this way, over there?"
“Heart, kidney… … . ”
Jinhyun's face was hardened. I realized their intentions.
They laughed.
It was a devil's smile.
“40 million won for the liver, 20 million won for each kidney, 40 million won for the heart and 30 million won for the cornea. What do you think? I'll die anyway, do something good. ”
Jinhyeon's organs were meant to sell.
They said with patience.
“We'll give you a special price of 20 million won. Surgery will be done in China. There is so much demand in China these days. ”
But Jin Hyun did not answer.
Of course. How can you sell your organs? No matter how many months you die.
“Can't you decide? Okay, wait. But you'd better decide quickly. Before cancer spreads and the organs can't be used. ”
"......."
And they disappeared.
Jinhyun left alone, murmuring.
"Sell me and sell your organs?"
Misery was not the end.
A few days later the owner of the building came to him.
"Please pull it out now."
“… Right now? ”
“Yes, do you know how many days you haven't paid rent? Debts keep coming in! I got a new man, so take it off right now! ”
So he was thrown into the street. Because of debt, they were all seized and there was no exclusion.
As I sat on the street in a suit, I was struck with cold winds.
What happened to my life?
Three ring!
At that time, my phone rang.
Was my mother.
Hello, are you Jinhyun?
"Ah yes. Mother."
-I'm just calling you. Is there anything bad about you?
Familiar concern.
My mother lived through her life and always worried about him.
Jinhyun's voice has been eaten. I lowered my voice urgently so as not to tee off.
“… Yes. It's okay."
-Yes, a lot of trouble. Work is good, but don't overdo it.
My mother still doesn't know that he's gone.
“Yes, take care of your mother too. that… I think I need to hang up because I have an urgent patient. ”
-Yes, it is. Let's talk again later.
I hung up quickly because I wasn't confident in controlling my feelings. He has been stunned for a while and has scoured his wallet.
There is a stationary card and a 10,000 won sheet, so Jin-hyun went to a store and picked up soju.
“9 thousand won.”
I scooped up the last money and bought a bunch of soju. My heart would burst if I was not drunk.
So he sat in the park under the winter breeze and drank perching like a homeless man.
"I'll eat."
I wanted to succeed.
I wanted to be a good doctor, a good son, and a good husband.
But in reality he was only a failure.
Puffy pulp was shochu.
But when I drank two bottles. A clear voice was heard in the cloudy spirit.
“Mr. Kim?”
It was a woman of grave. It was beautiful enough to pop into my eyes.
"Are you Mr. Kim?"
"......?"
"It's been a while. Do you remember me? ”
Jinhyun smiled.
"Excuse… who are you?"
It was a great beauty, but I did not remember.
The woman had a sad face.
“No, don't you remember me? You treated me and my brother last time. Mr. Kim, we would all be dead. ”
I didn't remember that well.
“… is that so?"
"Ok. Do you remember Daeil Hospital two years ago? ”
"Ah… … ! ”
Only Jinhyeon remembered.
Two years ago, he was treated to a man and woman who were stabbed to death.
I remember a young man and lady who looked like a celebrity wearing a big sword that was seen in movies.
In particular, she had many intestines and had to perform major surgery.
"But what are you doing here?"
It is a poorly managed park located in a dim place.
It's a place where a bum or a loser like himself hangs out with a beautiful beauty like her.
The woman smiled strangely.
“I came to see Mr. Kim.”
“… Me? why?"
“I'm giving you seeds.”
I could not understand.
“What do you mean? What is a seed? ”
"It's literally."
Jinhyeon frowned the wrinkles around her eyes.
“It's nice to meet you, but I don't feel like joking now. If you have any other business, see you. ”
But she rather sat down beside him. The smell of fragrant perfume irritated my nose.
"Don't drink it alone, please give me a drink."
At the same time, she pulled out a paper cup from a bag of soju that Jinhyun bought.
Jin-hyun was absurd and looked at her face. Still she was laughing at an unknown.
"What are you doing? Please give me a drink. ”
As a result, she was unusual in the emergency room two years ago.
Spilled guts from the open stomach did not scream once.
The medical staff was tired of being calm as if seeing others' wounds.
'I do not know.'
Jinhyeon followed soju. What if it's a ruined life anyway?
So they got a drink. The transparent soju went without a snack.
She said as the liquor rose to the top of her head and became distracted.
"Do you have a lot of trouble?"
"......."
My heart was filled with the question.
Is it hard?
Can you express this feeling simply as hard?
"Do you know who I am?"
“I know. You are a great doctor who saved my life and my brother. ”
Jinhyeon laughed bitterly.
“I haven't changed since I was young. In school, my grades were low, and I was bullied. I was also bullied when my father died of stomach cancer. ”
Are you drunk or frustrated?
The last life flowed out of his mouth.
If you do not confide to anyone seemed to go crazy.
-Kim Jin-hyun, medical school? It's amazing to be not paid.
-Stop now at our Daeil Hospital. I don't need you anymore.
-Divorce, we. I can't live like this anymore.
-Money What are you going to do, Money !!! Is a damn doctor a doctor? Give me the money !!!
-Anyway, I'll get cancer and I'll die soon.
Past life passed by.
'damn.'
Tears flowed out.
One of the failures was frosty tears.
When Jin-hyun hastily wiped her tears with her sleeve, the woman said.
“Do you remember when you saved us two years ago? We would have died if we had not been connected to the upper part after the fight with the lower part. ”
Lower part? Upper part?
Jinhyun shook his head to an unknown word.
"......."
“Afterwards, when we got back to work, we kept looking at you. I really wanted to repay that grace. ”
Jinhyeon frowned. Her words did not make sense.
'Are you drunk?'
But she looked straight at him. Dark eyes subsided dreamily.
“My name is the upper rain. At this moment, I'll give a return. I will give you seeds. ”
"What is the seed?"
“It is the blessing of the upper part. Do you want anything? It's against the rules, but I'll do anything. ”
Jin-hyun laughed.
Maybe she is drunk. Or your head is weird.
So said comfortably.
“Any wish is okay?”
"Yes, anything."
“I want to turn the time. So I want to go back to my childhood and live again. ”
A dreamy story, but the woman, rain did not laugh.
Her voice became heavy.
“I'll check again. Is that really what you want? ”
"Yes, I want it."
She took a small bottle out of her bag.
The bottle contained clear wine (黄酒). At first glance, it seemed like a sake of goods.
She advised Jin Hyun.
"I'll give you a drink this time."
"What is this?"
"It's seeds."
It was a funny name.
Jin-hyun, who was already drunk over her head, caught it. A gentle sore throat flowed.
And at that moment, my sight suddenly shook.
"Ah… … ! ”
She staggered and asked him again. It was a sad voice.
“If you live life again… What kind of life do you want to live? ”
Jinhyeon blinked her eyes in order not to fall.
“If you live again… This time I want to live a successful life. ”
"Successful life?"
"Yeah… Not ashamed… Nice son. I want to be a wonderful husband. So this time… I want to live a good life. ”
She smiled softly.
"I know. I'll pray for you to make that wish come true. You can stop sleeping now. ”
With that horse came an uncontrollable drowsiness.
So he lost consciousness.
Rain looked at faraway horizons.
Her eyes crossed the horizon and passed through time and space.
Can Jin Hyun live the life he wants?
It is only in his hands.
She whispered.
“Blessed. God bless you. ”
And she disappeared as if she appeared.
One white feather fell to the bench.